I wished..

This pain overwhelms me
The sadness deepens in my heart
I should have know you never felt this way
Even from the start.
I wished away the sadness
I wiped away the tears
Everything I once felt all seems to disappear
I put a smile on my face
That everyone is hoping to see
Wondering if they can still see what all this has done to me.
I look away from the truth
I choke on the lies
I turn away and try to ignore all these cries.
I wish none of this had been said I wish I could take it all back.
There is nothing left to say , it is very hard to do when you feel this way.