Secret Plea

In my heart and in my soul,
Please take my hand and let me know.
That though you are leaving , and you may never know.
How am I to tell you how much I love you so.
I cry these tears that no one sees, all our memories come crashing over me.
I feel you slipping away and there is nothing I can do, but hold on to the times I once had with you.
I regret the day where I look back and see the steps I counted when you walked away from me.
Behind this smile, he may never see, that in my heart is the way it still should be.
I sit here and wait for the day I again can call you mine, but until then I will be here watching the days pass by.
I know I have to say good bye. I know I do. But how do I say good bye when all I wanted to say was I love you.

I may be falling for you

The clouds role in and the sun fades away
I close my eyes and pretend to be okay
Then a thought of you comes to mind
It's funny how I think of you all the time
I don't know how to explain it
And I don't know the reasons why
All I can say is I've never felt this way inside
To you we're probably just friends
And the possibility of being more breaks and bends
And to you who may never know the feelings I have for you
But am too afraid to show
The clouds role away and the sun goes down
I can't help smiling every time that you are around
I think this is it , it may be true , I may be falling hard over you.

I wished..

This pain overwhelms me
The sadness deepens in my heart
I should have know you never felt this way
Even from the start.
I wished away the sadness
I wiped away the tears
Everything I once felt all seems to disappear
I put a smile on my face
That everyone is hoping to see
Wondering if they can still see what all this has done to me.
I look away from the truth
I choke on the lies
I turn away and try to ignore all these cries.
I wish none of this had been said I wish I could take it all back.
There is nothing left to say , it is very hard to do when you feel this way.

I am

I give you this one thought to keep-
I am with you still- I do not sleep,
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on the snow,
I am sunlight on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain,

When you awake in the morning's
hush, I am the swift uplifting rush,
of birds in song and flight. I am the
bright stars you glory in at night. A
moonrise, the setting sun. The trill
of a rushing stream, the quiet after
a winter storm.

Do not think of me as gone. I am with
you still, each and every day that you
awake.

Don't Let Me Think About You

I've got a picture of you that stays deep inside my heart and every time I close my eyes,
I see you,
I think that's the hardest part.
And all of our memories surround me night and day,
though it's hard for me to say.
I know that not a day goes by,
that I don't think of you and without you in my life,
I don't know what I'm going to do.
As the days pass by,
I know I'll always love you, but you had to be that mistake I had to make.
But as I step back and look at it all for a while,
I remember all the times that you would make me laugh and smile.
But I need to forget you now. Don't you see?
I need to let you go, and you need to let me be.
Although the thought sounds crazy.
And I need to stop going back to the what if's and the maybe's.
All this is in the past now, everything has changed.
Just don't let me think about you.
It would be easier that way.
We can go our separate directions and act like our lives haven't been rearranged.
Just don't let me think about you.
Please, don't let me think about you.

Hazel Eyes

Can it even be possible to feel like this? 

How?

I look into your eyes and I can hear my heart beat crazy for you.

If you'd let me I would look at you all day long. 

I can't go a moment without thinking about you or smiling about something you said. 

You're touch is so gentle and sweet, something I long for.

I pray that you end up in my dreams so that I can have something to smile about when I open my eyes.

I don't know what I did to end up with an angel like you, but I did and I can't believe it.

You're more than I could ever imagine and you seem like a prince from a fairytale.

I have fallen completely in love with you.

And for the first time, I feel like I am loving the way I'm supposed to be.

He makes me feel like I can trust myself.

He makes me feel like I can look in my mirror and tell myself that I am loved and for once, actually believe it

I love him for all the right reasons and I know my feelings will never change.

You

You. I have known you for a long time, but we never really talked.
All that I have missed out on, I am now just realizing.
You have been the only one who can make me smile for weeks.
I never knew how quickly we would click and become such good friends
You are the best thing that has happened to me in a long long time.
You're the first one who has been able to make me nervous when I am with you
I want to be perfect for you, because you are perfect for me.
You make me forget about everything that I'm worried about and I never want to leave your side because I know the sadness will creep up behind me without you there.
You are my shield. You protect me.
Now, as for my heart, I can't say much..
I'm scared to let you in because I don't want to get hurt again
But just being with you heals me
I promised myself that I would never let anyone in and I would never fall for anyone
But I think I am going to have to hold off on that promise for now
Because I met someone,
You